I believe that you don't need to have birthed a child to understand what it would be like to be a mom. Eleven years ago, I became a mom. I think that becoming a mother only enhanced my understanding of parenthood. Having a child was the single most wonderful gift that I could ever receive. I was worried that I may have trouble getting pregnant since my mom had difficulty getting pregnant. I was very fortunate, I was pregnant quickly after we started trying. (Fortunate is an understatement, I know getting pregnant for others is can be extremely difficult. I have never taken that for granted.)
Some women do not enjoy being pregnant, I loved it! I didn't love the weight gain and being slowed down. But growing this wonderful little person in my tummy and feeling the baby grow was amazing. I wanted at least four children, I was blessed with two. They are the loves of my life. I can't imagine my world without them.
They are just sixteen months apart and are amazing little people. I loved the moments as we were in them, yet look forward to the next, and at the same time missed what they had just outgrown. Now they are eleven and ten. I just can't believe that all those years are now behind us. When I look forward to the future, I think my time with them is more than half over. I only have seven years left with Ryan before he heads of to college and Lucas will follow the next year.
My heart is soaring with mixed emotions. As they grow more independent, they will hug me less, hold my hand less and need me less. I can't be believe my babies are growing so quickly. As they are preparing for their future, I am preparing for them to grow away from me. I want to make sure that I continue to make the most of every moment, as my time with them in my home is running out. Time needs to slow down just a little.